I feel like I am in this constant flux of trying to find something to do and feeling totally overwhelmed with what I am already doing. Can anyone relate? Sometimes, I have so much work to do that I cannot budge. Other times, I feel like I am looking for something to do that is more fulfilling. Raising children just doesn't always "feel" like I am "doing" much. I mean, there's the constant diaper changing, feeding, consoling, cleaning and of course, the never-ending piles of dirty and clean clothes that need to be washed and put away. How does a Christian woman remind herself of the main goal of all this?
I need to stay in the word more. I need to stay prayerful about my day more. I need to pray more for my husband and kids. I could post a thousand more "I need to" phrases and in my thoughtlessness, I could also post a bunch of "I need" phrases. I don't know how to operate in a way where I don't end up in this place! Does this even make sense? I need to edit photos, but the hard drive isn't working with the airport... wait, I just remembered, I unplugged it so I could plug in and use the printer!! Well, I'll add "I need to get a USB hub" to the list. I also need to list more jewelry for Apparent Jewelry on etsy... people have been wanting to order but I just haven't had much spare time to get on that. I also need to make them business cards and figure out how to keep track of orders for beauty shops wanting to display the jewelry.
I've found I don't start tasks mainly b/c I don't know if I will have the time to finish the task in one sitting... due to children :) But then, I just get behind and stress more until I am beyond able to focus or be kind - not actually beyond able, but just beyond it being natural or easy. I must find a better method for doing all this! Anyway, I just wanted to share my daily struggle a little bit. I really should be getting something done instead of this... guess I'll get to it. Feel free to share your wisdom or at least pray for me! I have a completely insurmountable list this week :) God is faithful tho, I just need to stick to it and rely on Him.
I need to stay in the word more. I need to stay prayerful about my day more. I need to pray more for my husband and kids. I could post a thousand more "I need to" phrases and in my thoughtlessness, I could also post a bunch of "I need" phrases. I don't know how to operate in a way where I don't end up in this place! Does this even make sense? I need to edit photos, but the hard drive isn't working with the airport... wait, I just remembered, I unplugged it so I could plug in and use the printer!! Well, I'll add "I need to get a USB hub" to the list. I also need to list more jewelry for Apparent Jewelry on etsy... people have been wanting to order but I just haven't had much spare time to get on that. I also need to make them business cards and figure out how to keep track of orders for beauty shops wanting to display the jewelry.
I've found I don't start tasks mainly b/c I don't know if I will have the time to finish the task in one sitting... due to children :) But then, I just get behind and stress more until I am beyond able to focus or be kind - not actually beyond able, but just beyond it being natural or easy. I must find a better method for doing all this! Anyway, I just wanted to share my daily struggle a little bit. I really should be getting something done instead of this... guess I'll get to it. Feel free to share your wisdom or at least pray for me! I have a completely insurmountable list this week :) God is faithful tho, I just need to stick to it and rely on Him.
May 3, 2010 at 6:53 PM
Jo-jo, I can TOTALLY relate! I was having this struggle at work just today! I know there is so much to be done, but somehow, I just was not sure where to start. Then in my head, I start to think it's all so useless and get myself stressed and nervous and worked up.
Don't worry, sis, you're not alone in this! It only reminds us to lean on God more. :) Love you!
May 3, 2010 at 8:09 PM
Hey Joellen...I have the perfect website for you right now...just stumbled upon it a few weeks ago, and I LOVE what she has to say about what it means to be a "mom" and how it truly is our high calling from God...I hope it helps you be encouraged that the day to day stuff IS important, and that this is the season you are in...your life will change sooner than you think..you WILL get back to all of those things that you love...anyhoo...http://sahmissionary.blogspot.com...go to "home" on the right..she is reposting some earlier stuff on the subject right now...SO GOOD!
May 4, 2010 at 9:04 AM
A wise man (not me) once said "There is always time to do the Lord's will." The challenge--for me at least--is discerning what things are His things and what things are my things, then letting go of my things so I have the time to do His things. Have fun letting go and trusting!
We appreciate and love you so much!
May 4, 2010 at 8:48 PM
Thanks so much everyone. I totally feel the love and encouragement today :)
May 5, 2010 at 12:58 AM
Just wanted to say I've been praying for you, and thank you for trying to stay so diligent in your Walk.
From sharing some of your revelations, I've gotten a lot of great, insightgul stuff from many of your posts lately, in relation to His Word & living our Faith. And of course they seem to go right along with other similar things God's been revealing to me in other ways at the same time. So thank you for being a part of what God wants to tell me these days.
Isn't it one of His cool things, the way you'll get the same lesson in many forms all around the same time? :)